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rhialtoA while ago I read about livejournal's change in policy regarding unused journals, so I felt it was necessary to post some dummy entry to Isabelle (babounet)'s journal. When doing that, lj offered to restore a draft, and completely unexpected, a large block of text popped up. I posted it here.
I am absolutely in tears now.
ETA: Here is a copy too:
[Note from Rhialto: I logged in as babounet to post a message to prevent this account from being deleted due to inactivity and too few posts. Lj asked me if I wanted to restore from saved draft, and the result is below. Now that I see it I do remember her telling me she was in the process of posting something - so here we hear from her even now. Oh I love her so much!]
Hello again
Thank you to the very lovely people who have sent me really great welcoming messages I felt very touched by them and really chuffed that so many people wanted to become my friend. Also of course thank you to my lovely Rhialto for setting up this profile for me.
I had thought of joining LJ after Bicon as Rhiato often desbribes it as a fun and supportive way of staying in touch with people from Bicon.
So I had thought I would talk about what a great week end Bicon was: the lovely people I met, the fun workshops, the dancing (I absolutely loved the music).
I also thought I would talk about how lovely it was that Bicon was the second anniversary of my meeting my darling Rhialto (and meeting him was such an amazing gift from the universe because he really had brought me so much).
Lastly I thought I would join towards the end of the week and talk about how excited I was about having a new start in my life.
As some of you may know (possibly from the great chemo haircut I was sporting last year at Bicon (free on the NHS) I was diagnosed with cancer of the lymphatic system last year (May 2008). After a cancer clear verdict in late January, I had been going from strength to strength and I thought that after my scan results this Thursday I was going to be back to having a life (rather than being stuck somewhere in survivors' land) .
Unfortunately the results were not what I had expected, they are showing signs of a probable relapse of the illness. So I am having to ditch all my plans of a new start and I really feel at a loss at the moment.
I come from a family in which pretty much everyone is in good health and in which people live old (almost everyone lives to be eighty and some have even lived beyond 100) so I always automatically assumed I would have a long life. Now I don't know whether I have a future or not and that feels very weird.
So this is me this week end and it feels really strange to post this as my entry on a lovely sunny bank holiday Monday after a mainly lovely cosy week end with my lovely Rhiato.
I am absolutely in tears now.
ETA: Here is a copy too:
[Note from Rhialto: I logged in as babounet to post a message to prevent this account from being deleted due to inactivity and too few posts. Lj asked me if I wanted to restore from saved draft, and the result is below. Now that I see it I do remember her telling me she was in the process of posting something - so here we hear from her even now. Oh I love her so much!]
Hello again
Thank you to the very lovely people who have sent me really great welcoming messages I felt very touched by them and really chuffed that so many people wanted to become my friend. Also of course thank you to my lovely Rhialto for setting up this profile for me.
I had thought of joining LJ after Bicon as Rhiato often desbribes it as a fun and supportive way of staying in touch with people from Bicon.
So I had thought I would talk about what a great week end Bicon was: the lovely people I met, the fun workshops, the dancing (I absolutely loved the music).
I also thought I would talk about how lovely it was that Bicon was the second anniversary of my meeting my darling Rhialto (and meeting him was such an amazing gift from the universe because he really had brought me so much).
Lastly I thought I would join towards the end of the week and talk about how excited I was about having a new start in my life.
As some of you may know (possibly from the great chemo haircut I was sporting last year at Bicon (free on the NHS) I was diagnosed with cancer of the lymphatic system last year (May 2008). After a cancer clear verdict in late January, I had been going from strength to strength and I thought that after my scan results this Thursday I was going to be back to having a life (rather than being stuck somewhere in survivors' land) .
Unfortunately the results were not what I had expected, they are showing signs of a probable relapse of the illness. So I am having to ditch all my plans of a new start and I really feel at a loss at the moment.
I come from a family in which pretty much everyone is in good health and in which people live old (almost everyone lives to be eighty and some have even lived beyond 100) so I always automatically assumed I would have a long life. Now I don't know whether I have a future or not and that feels very weird.
So this is me this week end and it feels really strange to post this as my entry on a lovely sunny bank holiday Monday after a mainly lovely cosy week end with my lovely Rhiato.